I offer myself to you

"Miss Elliot, I can bear this no longer. You pierce my soul. I'm half agony, half hope. Unjust I may have been. Weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it eight years ago. I have loved none but you. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone I think and plan. Have you not seen this?"

Persuasion .:Jane Austen:.

aaaahhhh~~~ the beauty of conservative language of English. And the sweet conservative love of time before urban. What happen with the language of people with time...?  And what happen to the shape of love in time?

Before the introduction of electromagnetic waves to the world... before the widely usage of handphones, email, messenger or even facebook... Love was suppose to be the Trust, Faith and Believe without the need for introduction or falling in love. Love was determination. Love... was marriage.

But now, love is something that you need to work for it. You need to be introduced to it. And you need to fall for it. Before moving on to engagement and marriage. And the worst case scenario is when they say that "Yang kita sayang x semestinya yang kita kahwin"

What about those conservative love for soldiers at war.... When they are married without knowing who is the other half... when all the wives can do is waiting faithfully for their husbands to come back alive (okay, I got this idea from the novel Isteri Hanaoka Seishu) and yet, when the husbands came back, the tangerine feelings inside are precious and priceless. This is what they call "I knew I love you before I know you" by Savage Garden.