I offer myself to you

"Miss Elliot, I can bear this no longer. You pierce my soul. I'm half agony, half hope. Unjust I may have been. Weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it eight years ago. I have loved none but you. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone I think and plan. Have you not seen this?"

Persuasion .:Jane Austen:.

aaaahhhh~~~ the beauty of conservative language of English. And the sweet conservative love of time before urban. What happen with the language of people with time...?  And what happen to the shape of love in time?

Before the introduction of electromagnetic waves to the world... before the widely usage of handphones, email, messenger or even facebook... Love was suppose to be the Trust, Faith and Believe without the need for introduction or falling in love. Love was determination. Love... was marriage.

But now, love is something that you need to work for it. You need to be introduced to it. And you need to fall for it. Before moving on to engagement and marriage. And the worst case scenario is when they say that "Yang kita sayang x semestinya yang kita kahwin"

What about those conservative love for soldiers at war.... When they are married without knowing who is the other half... when all the wives can do is waiting faithfully for their husbands to come back alive (okay, I got this idea from the novel Isteri Hanaoka Seishu) and yet, when the husbands came back, the tangerine feelings inside are precious and priceless. This is what they call "I knew I love you before I know you" by Savage Garden.

Inspire

"You cannot demand change from people, you can only inspire them..."

Lying to be Perfect .:movie:.

These few words of an incomplete sentence that actually came from an unknown movie, has actually gave a deep meaning to myself. What do these words meant? Why am I bothered by these words...

After 2 years of becoming a teacher, i started to feel bored with everything. Repeating the same thing over and over again.... aren't you people get tired of it?? I was wondering, what is this job about? If its about giving them the knowledge, they can just read the books and conduct their own experiments. So, what is the purpose that I am here?

 

Inspirations..... As I received this message from one of my ex-student, somehow everything just fit in. I knew the reason why I am here... Why I have to be here... 

to be the helping hand for them,

to be the one that telling them to dream big and wide,

to be the one to push and give them a little courage to have that 1st step,

to be the one to catch them when they fall,

to give them strength for them to pull through,

to let them experience the life success and failure,

to let them know the importance of love and family,

 

to be the inspiration for them to be a better person.... a much better person than myself

and to inspire is a very huge responsibility~~