It's all too much

The night is turning into a shade of cobalt
The chilly star studded sky is glimmering
There’s no need for words of any sort

Rather than trying to uncover the truth concealed behind tears
I’m better off with baseless predictions
Sitting on the bench where the lights have already gone out
And gazing up
It was a shooting star with only idealities surfacing

Nee! Would someone enlighten me
If I were to live life as it is simply
I would gather all the miracles dispersed throughout the universe
And try overcoming them
All because these emotions which are pulsing throughout my body
Are dictating me
This wouldn’t do
Am I right?

Being as decisive as cast dice
And not ever having regrets
I hope to move onward to the next destination
The rule book which was created uncertainly
Only timidity appeared later
I continue watching the backs of my rivals
That,
As naked as the moonlight
Was a shooting star which strayed from a pure heart

Nee! Would someone enlighten me
To live life as it is simply
Innocence does not suffice
You can’t escape from conflicts too
Those lessons which I have learnt time after time
Are definitely dictating me
What should I do
It’s a lie isn’t it?

Simply daydreaming
Will not get me anywhere
It also can’t make me more pleasant
I wonder why?

… It’s all too much

Nee! Would someone enlighten me
In order to live life as it is simply
I want to change even the toughest obstacles facing me into something humorous
And then laugh it off
Because there is no way to resolve it
It is buried within everyday life

That is why I wish to believe
Miracles do exist don’t they?
Am I right?

Credit : YUI

Perseid Shower

Peak hours, dlm kul 10 mlm pd 12 August 2009, rabu. Diorg ckp leh nmpk around 200 shower per hour, kt tmpt2 kg, yg tak byk pencemaran chy. Kt maktab jb ni, of cos takkan nampak. Tp jap lg nk try tgk, skang still kul 9.30pm lg. hehe

Swine Flu vs Denggi

Jejak je kaki kt airport, nmpk rmai super pkai topeng2 kesihatan tu. Then, g buka akaun bsn, pekerja2 dier sumer pkai topeng tu smpi takleh dgr ape yg diorg ckp. hehe. Masuk2 maktab, 13 org dihantar ke hosp sbb demam n selesema, sorg dah dikonfirmkan dpt swine flu. Pensyarah2 kt sni sumer agak cuak ngan kitorg yg baru balik dr negara2 aktif swine flu ni.

Then aku dgr seorg penguatkuasa bhgn farmasi bercerita.

Swine Flu, asal dr mexico, kene pada org2 putih. Org2 putih ni org2 yg agak berada. Taminflu, kira cam ubat utk pulihkan swine flu ni mahal gediks super. Kat malaysia hanya akan diberikan pada org yg btul2 confirm kene jek. Mana2 yg di syaki terpaksa di quarantin je dlu. Akibatnyer, dah dlm 5 org meninggal dunia. Kt UK, taminflu tu dah dpt dibagi kt pesakit2 yg disyaki teruk swine flu. disyaki ok. Kt US lak, vaccine dier yg aku rasa sykt GlaxoSmith yg hasilkan dah diberi pd 1/3 rakyat2 dier.

Denggi. Dah berapa dekad ntah penyakit ni ader, smpi skang takde ubat dier. Vaccine pn mmg susah aa nk ckp. Dunia tak amik tau langsung. Tak kecoh langsung. Kadar kematian denggi lebih byk dr swine flu. Tp disebabkan negara2 yg vito ni yg terlibat, research department terus lumba2 nk cr vaccine and medicine utk swine flu. Denggi lak, ape citer? Research2 uni kt msia, ape citer2? hosp uni kt msia, ape citer? asyik tunggu vaccine dr negara vito ni, smpi bila kita nk duk bwh ketiak diorg? at least wat aa cam pertandingan ke, sape dpt hasilkan vaccine denggi dlm masa 3 thn, uni dier dpt peruntukan rm 10 juta. haha. tp, ckp mmg senang, aku sbg rakyat biasa leh bg cadangan je aa. hehe.

Kesimpulannya mari mendoakan mereka yg terlibat agar sentiasa dipelihara Allah di dunia dan di akhirat. Ameen.

Scorpius

I look up onto the sky. Spica as always, terang seterang2nyer. rasanyer sbb terang spica tu laa hilang bentuk Virgo. Due south-west of the Moon, jelas kelihatan bintang Antares (Alpha Scorpius). Bila tekun tgk Antares tu, satu per satu bintang2 kecik keliling dier muncul. Akhirnya, dpt laa tgk zodiak Scorpius. Tgk kt gambar nmpk comel, skali nmpk real, giler besar gabak.

Then cari laa bintang femes arah kiblat (zodiak Orion). Eih takde. Hmm. then search starmap tenet. mmg takkan kluar rupanyer. Cerita sebenar wujudnya Scorpius, rupanyer ader kene mengena ngan Orion. Gaia, the everlasting foundation of the gods of Olympus arahkan seekor scorpion utk serang the mighty hunter, Orion sbb orion dah byk bunuh binatang kt bumi. But Scorpius tak pernah dpt bunuh Orion sbb Scorpius 'diletakkan' di langit timur supaya Scorpius would only rise in the east after Orion had safely disappeared over the western horizon. Kesimpulannya, Orion akan sentiasa lari dr Scorpius yg duk kejar dier dah brape abad ntah smpi kiamat rasanyer. Haha.



The pelik thing is, kt setiap kala jengking, scorpius ni ader penyengat dier yg diwakili oleh 2 bintang kt ekor dier iaitu lambda and upsilon. Arab zaman dulu2 dah namakan dua2 bintang ni 'The Sting' bersesuaian ngan nama scorpius dier. Haha. kebetulan ke tak? Ader reason gak Allah bg ilham kt org2 greek supaya namakan zodiak tu Scorpius. Hikmahnyer akan sentiasa berterusan smpi bila2

Graduation Summer 2009

Finally, but again, as all may say... THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING



So, from baby steps, I'm moving on to toddler's running and falling. And keep wondering, when will I fly like superman. Wanting to always be good to others. And also the needing of tears and crush. All of this is to become my-better-self

No Boundary

No boundary. A beautiful song sang by the latest American Idol, Kris Allen.

"There is no boundary for universe as there is no 'other' side of the universe that we can look into," Prof Copeland once said in one of his brilliant lecture for Cosmology.

I was reading tafsir Quran for surah titled 'the stars' just to search for any knowledge on the universe and I came across this verse (Al-Najm 53:17)

"Penglihatannya (Muhammad) tidak berpaling dari yg dilihatnya itu dan tidak (pula) melampauinya"

My mind is full with astronomy right now. After finished watching the national geographic video on 'Journey to the End of the Universe,' I felt ashamed of myself for losing my faith in this dream that Allah have gave especially to me. I recovered my passion in astronomy. And I will always pray that I won't loose this passion ever again.

Halal beers

I came across this drink when I was watching akhbar youtube. Someone commented that there is the so-called 'halal beer' made from barley malt... bla3... me n my friends were a little shock. Then both of us went dining in one of halal restaurant in UK and there, again, we came across this so-called 'halal beer'. Non-alcoholic red & white wines, and also beers. Curiosity almost got us. We just an inch away from drinking those drinks. But Allah will and always protect us. That's the power of my believe.

Later at home, my mind wouldn't get off this so-called 'halal beer'. Google, the cheapest, easiest source of information. 672,000 google hits for halal beer. Most of muslim forums are still discussing about this matter. But most of the non-muslim websites are promoting this so-called 'halal beer' (eg: time.com, theasiannews.co.uk, news24.com)

I joined the muslimgirls livejournal group and address this matter for discussion. Some answers really hit me:

"just my opinion, but you would think that since it is haram to drink alcohol, even drinking non-alcoholic drinks that are made to look like alcoholic drinks would be haram too, even if no alcohol is ingested. it's the act in general. why model something after a haram act? why would you want to be seen drinking a non-alcoholic drink, when it would be haram if you were really drinking the alcoholic version. but i really don't know what the answer would be! i hope someone can help you" credit: goldseas

There are some acts towards this so-called 'halal beer'. I admit I have a shallow knowledge about this but I am still and want to learn more about this.

Awake

Morning Coffee, Penyeri Hari

Please, dun be like them...

The Dirty Little Secret about undergraduate students =p

Stress 1;

Stress 2;

Stress 3;

Stress 4;

Stress 5;

Sress 6;

Theory of nothing.

The evidence of black hole at my zodiac ~sagittarius~
The white dots are stars orbiting the huge mass at center of Milky Way. After 10 years of observation, the sudden high speed of star while orbiting confirmed the location of the black hole, within my zodiac. hehe

Conservation of energy. Energy cannot be created or destroyed. But based on big bang, something created from nothing. This nothing must be dense with energy for it to have all of the energy in the universe now after the big bang. So, what is the theory of nothing? One absolute answer.
Allah.

This is one reason why I love astrophysics.

Watch this movie. Superb. mmg angels n demons kalah aa

Sora

pardon for the inbalance colour used. My camera hp bukan slr~

Who says English is easy?

Fill in the following blank with either 'YES' or 'NO'
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"____, I am a cow"




So, can you get the right answer?
=p

Psychology Fraud

Larkin JB : UFO sight-seeing


http://zamriz.blogspot.com/

haha.... nk percaya ke tak? kalo ikut ape yg aku blaja slama bebrapa tahun, bende ijau2 tu... Ferrous sulfate. ke cahaya luminol?
ekekekek


edit: ok2. tak tau laa ni valid ke tak? tp jumpa kt fb http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=1783324&id=674918545&ref=nf#/photo.php?pid=1783328&id=674918545&ref=nf

bende ijau atas tu adalah saturn

WordPlay

Please don't give me any more hope,
I might be wanting for more,
I got tired of waiting,
But I still wouldn't let go,
Not this time, not yet.

Something is piercing my chest,
It's been days and I'm still hurting,
What kind of feeling is this?
I don't want any of it,
I can't breathe,
Please, someone, save me,
I am drowning in my own feelings.

Sprinkling the salt into my wound,
Are you deepening my scar?
Time will always heals,
But I am patient no more,
I just want to chase away this pain,
At this time, at this moment, Right now.

haha...aku nk bandingkan ke-emo-an aku ngan emo yui.
Sama tak?

Welcome Pain

I am supposed to pursue my dream
in this narrow winding road, stuttering in the crowds of people

It's not that I want to return to that past,
I am just searching for the sky I have lost.
I hope you understand.
Don't show the sad face as if you have been sacrificed.

Tears do not end a sin. We have to carry it with us through
in this maze of feelings with no ends in sight.
Who am I waiting for?
As scribbled on the blank note, I want to be more honest.
What do I want to escape from?
Is it this thing called "reality"?

"For what am I living?"
In the middle of the night as my memories are fading.
I can't play safe anymore,
but there is nowhere to go too.
There's still so much in life to remove this feeling.
I will feel nostalgic about it.
I welcome this pain.

Yui -again-
credit : depyon

Cute really. Especially when you realized how close your situation now with these lyrics.
I had lost my sky (hope) before. I wanted to give up and play safe but there is nowhere for me to go. And I'm still resisting to let go. This little dream I have is still keep on pushing me from behind. If I lose it, there's nothing left to push me ahead.

Jumper -yes man-

Fmaj7               C                   G
 I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend

Fmaj7               C              G
 You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in, A-and

Fmaj7                C         G
If you do not want to see me again I would understand


G             Am      C      G
I would Under-sta---i-a---i-and

G             Am      C      G
I would under-sta---i-a---i-and

Am( hold )
The angry boy, a bit too insane,

C( hold )
icing over a secret pain,

G
You know you dont belong,


   Am                                D9sus2
Well everyone I know has got a reason, to say, put the past away

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Fmaj7               C                   G
 I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend


Fmaj7               C                   G
 You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been livin in, A-and

Fmaj7                C          G
if you do not want to see me again


G             Am      C      G
I would Under-sta---i-a---i-and

G             Am      C      G
I would under-sta---i-a---i-and

Ordinary Miracles

The famous "ant nebulae"

remember "Ultraman 7 stars?" - here is the "Seven Sisters"

Surat ar-Rahman (chapter 55), "When the sky is torn apart, so it was (like) a red rose, like ointment."

and my latest SkyWatcher Explorer Reflector 200P EQ5

How Galaxy Works

redshift
The expansion of the universe means that light travelling towards us will have its wavelength stretched along with the universe.

be drift by the wonders of the universe~

tag2 kawen?

1. How old are you?

–> 22 (not a girl not yet a woman)

2.Are you single?

–> yup n available =]

3. At what age do you think you’ll get married?

–> 25 insyaAllah. Mudah2an dipermudahkan~

4. Do you think you’ll marrying the person you are with now?

–> might be. might not be. who knows

5. If not, who do you want to marry?

–> Satoshi Ohno ^x^

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?

–> my sis kot... then, my cousins? haha... tgk laa saper avaliable n takleh lg cun dr aku pd ari itu... =p

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?

–>garden... tp byk nyamuk... hahaha.... or kt ballroom hotel ke... ekekekek

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?

–> winter sonata~ ahaks

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?

–> everybody who knows me.

10.Will that include your exes?

–> masuk kot... huhu.. kalo sudi dtg aa

11.How many layers of cake do you want?

–> nk satu layer jek... tp khas utk me n my future husband je leh mkn... ekekekek

12.When do you want to get married, morning or evening?

–> Nikah friday morning kt masjid abu bakar, jb... lawa tmpt tu~

13.Name the song/tune you’d like to play at your wedding.

–> lagu kawen melayu, cina, hindustan, omputih n jepun(arashi-one love, yuna ito - precious)

jiwang~~

14.Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon & fork?knife?

–> pki tgn aa~ ikot sunnah nabi (bak kata kirin)

15.Champagne or red wine?

–> sirap limau je leh tak? haha

16.Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?

–> kalo leh right after~

17.Money or household items?

–> money =p

18.How many kids would you like to have?

–> kalo leh nk 5... tp ikut rezeki Allah sediakan

19.Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?

–> wajib. haha

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?

–> hmmm.... lang (semestinya), pi'e sudi ke? haha...

Goodbye Winter

Recap~

1st night

2nd day : behind my room

again, behind my room

Neo di belakang berusaha membuat snowman

hasil masterpiece Neo

Sebesar aku~

Rookies

I had been watching Japanese Drama Rookies, superb.

I had to admit, I'm in the middle of self-destruction as once in a while, I've been thinking about giving up my own dream. After watching Rookies, somehow, I regain my passion again. But then, the reality came. The world are just too difficult. It's not as easy as it seems. I know, patience is virtue, but I can't help this feeling of losing.

"Everyone has equal rights to dream"
"If you dare to pull out your courage, you can change"
"Reflection is needed, but clinging to your past mistake is foolish"

I love these motivational words from Rookies.
Seriously, Rookies is very recommended!!!

The Mystery Roar

Early this month, Nasa' Columbia Scientific Balloon facilities detected the mystery roar/boom from far away space of the expanding universe. Universe isn't as quite as one has expected. The roar might come from some unknown galaxies merging in the outer space and guess what, astronomers had predicted our very own milky way is expected to merge with andromeda or any nearest galaxies.

Haha. Dun worry, Milky way has been evolving and growing by cannibalizing some small nearby galaxies. We are welcoming our planet neighbours even though we had lost the one that closest to us. We miss you Pluto~ the Magellanic Clouds, one of our own satellite galaxies kept on coming close and further with us.

Galaxy merging~

Best Friend ~kiroro~

I don't have to worry anymore, cause you will be by my side when I cry
You always smile at me
I am blessed because you always shine before me
Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you thank you Best Friend

These plenty happiness that I felt at this moment
All the friends that I have here, you the best present
I am blessed because you always be by our side
Surely things that I have accomplished here, those things too give me strength (change to strength)
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
All of your smile has helped me endless time, you know

Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time, you know

Thank you thank you Best Friend

my note: Can I be that person?

How Crazy

I put my cold guitar inside its case.
People still want me to play tonight,
But I think I’ve had enough today.
Yeah, I’m feeling all right.

Adults give me advice all the time,
Strange people I can’t respect.
I didn’t really want to be like you at first.

My faded jeans rustle as I get on a subway train,
I peer into the window and see my dark reflection.
I haven’t changed at all, I’m still as I was back then.

I wish I had some money for a change, you know?

How Crazy!
Stop talking like you can read my mind.
You can’t, I’m telling you.
How Crazy!
I’m just a rat that escaped from a burning ship,
Sinking deep into the sea.

I’ve always loved my dreams and desires,
Blindly following them isn’t the way to go.

Walking up the subway steps creeps me out.
The light at the end feels dark and unknown.

In a parking by lot by twilight’s light,
I see a happy little kid, waving his hand at me,
Without a care in the world.

I yell at the naive child,
Trying to tell him to be wise,
To use his time as he should,
But I don’t know how to say it.

It’s useless, it’s hopeless.
He can’t understand either way.

Oh God, it’s so cruel. For both of us.

How Crazy!
Stop talking like you can read my mind.
You can’t, I’m telling you.
How Crazy!
I’m just a rat that escaped from a burning ship,
Sinking deep into the sea.

I’ve always loved my dreams and desires,
Blindly following them will do nothing for me.

Work, work, study study,
Get those A’s and honors in school
Or your family will weep in shame.

You can make a billion dollars in a flash,
But can’t respect yourself.
Baby, that’s me.
My mind groans under a thousand contradictions.
How long must I live in a world like this?!

How Crazy!
Stop talking like you know who I am.
You don’t, I’m telling you.
How Crazy!
I’m just a rat that escaped from a burning ship,
Sinking deep into the sea.

I clutched my cold guitar and sang a song by myself,
Just like I did all those years ago

-YUI-
credit of translation : madong

Welcome 2009

The International Year of Astronomy 2009 (IYA2009)

This would be the astronomy year for the whole century, i think. There will be thousands of astronomical activities that will be carried out throughout the whole world for a complete 365 days.
Of course, Malaysia tidak ketinggalan :-

Galaxy Evolution and Environment, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
(29th March – 4th April 2009)

where my very loving-but-garang supervisor will be one of the speakers. He is one of the few astronomers in Europe who has access to the Hubble Space Telescope, and the one who invented the CAS parameter for galaxies.

So, Welcome to the Year full of AstroPhysics