It's all too much

The night is turning into a shade of cobalt
The chilly star studded sky is glimmering
There’s no need for words of any sort

Rather than trying to uncover the truth concealed behind tears
I’m better off with baseless predictions
Sitting on the bench where the lights have already gone out
And gazing up
It was a shooting star with only idealities surfacing

Nee! Would someone enlighten me
If I were to live life as it is simply
I would gather all the miracles dispersed throughout the universe
And try overcoming them
All because these emotions which are pulsing throughout my body
Are dictating me
This wouldn’t do
Am I right?

Being as decisive as cast dice
And not ever having regrets
I hope to move onward to the next destination
The rule book which was created uncertainly
Only timidity appeared later
I continue watching the backs of my rivals
That,
As naked as the moonlight
Was a shooting star which strayed from a pure heart

Nee! Would someone enlighten me
To live life as it is simply
Innocence does not suffice
You can’t escape from conflicts too
Those lessons which I have learnt time after time
Are definitely dictating me
What should I do
It’s a lie isn’t it?

Simply daydreaming
Will not get me anywhere
It also can’t make me more pleasant
I wonder why?

… It’s all too much

Nee! Would someone enlighten me
In order to live life as it is simply
I want to change even the toughest obstacles facing me into something humorous
And then laugh it off
Because there is no way to resolve it
It is buried within everyday life

That is why I wish to believe
Miracles do exist don’t they?
Am I right?

Credit : YUI

Perseid Shower

Peak hours, dlm kul 10 mlm pd 12 August 2009, rabu. Diorg ckp leh nmpk around 200 shower per hour, kt tmpt2 kg, yg tak byk pencemaran chy. Kt maktab jb ni, of cos takkan nampak. Tp jap lg nk try tgk, skang still kul 9.30pm lg. hehe

Swine Flu vs Denggi

Jejak je kaki kt airport, nmpk rmai super pkai topeng2 kesihatan tu. Then, g buka akaun bsn, pekerja2 dier sumer pkai topeng tu smpi takleh dgr ape yg diorg ckp. hehe. Masuk2 maktab, 13 org dihantar ke hosp sbb demam n selesema, sorg dah dikonfirmkan dpt swine flu. Pensyarah2 kt sni sumer agak cuak ngan kitorg yg baru balik dr negara2 aktif swine flu ni.

Then aku dgr seorg penguatkuasa bhgn farmasi bercerita.

Swine Flu, asal dr mexico, kene pada org2 putih. Org2 putih ni org2 yg agak berada. Taminflu, kira cam ubat utk pulihkan swine flu ni mahal gediks super. Kat malaysia hanya akan diberikan pada org yg btul2 confirm kene jek. Mana2 yg di syaki terpaksa di quarantin je dlu. Akibatnyer, dah dlm 5 org meninggal dunia. Kt UK, taminflu tu dah dpt dibagi kt pesakit2 yg disyaki teruk swine flu. disyaki ok. Kt US lak, vaccine dier yg aku rasa sykt GlaxoSmith yg hasilkan dah diberi pd 1/3 rakyat2 dier.

Denggi. Dah berapa dekad ntah penyakit ni ader, smpi skang takde ubat dier. Vaccine pn mmg susah aa nk ckp. Dunia tak amik tau langsung. Tak kecoh langsung. Kadar kematian denggi lebih byk dr swine flu. Tp disebabkan negara2 yg vito ni yg terlibat, research department terus lumba2 nk cr vaccine and medicine utk swine flu. Denggi lak, ape citer? Research2 uni kt msia, ape citer2? hosp uni kt msia, ape citer? asyik tunggu vaccine dr negara vito ni, smpi bila kita nk duk bwh ketiak diorg? at least wat aa cam pertandingan ke, sape dpt hasilkan vaccine denggi dlm masa 3 thn, uni dier dpt peruntukan rm 10 juta. haha. tp, ckp mmg senang, aku sbg rakyat biasa leh bg cadangan je aa. hehe.

Kesimpulannya mari mendoakan mereka yg terlibat agar sentiasa dipelihara Allah di dunia dan di akhirat. Ameen.

Scorpius

I look up onto the sky. Spica as always, terang seterang2nyer. rasanyer sbb terang spica tu laa hilang bentuk Virgo. Due south-west of the Moon, jelas kelihatan bintang Antares (Alpha Scorpius). Bila tekun tgk Antares tu, satu per satu bintang2 kecik keliling dier muncul. Akhirnya, dpt laa tgk zodiak Scorpius. Tgk kt gambar nmpk comel, skali nmpk real, giler besar gabak.

Then cari laa bintang femes arah kiblat (zodiak Orion). Eih takde. Hmm. then search starmap tenet. mmg takkan kluar rupanyer. Cerita sebenar wujudnya Scorpius, rupanyer ader kene mengena ngan Orion. Gaia, the everlasting foundation of the gods of Olympus arahkan seekor scorpion utk serang the mighty hunter, Orion sbb orion dah byk bunuh binatang kt bumi. But Scorpius tak pernah dpt bunuh Orion sbb Scorpius 'diletakkan' di langit timur supaya Scorpius would only rise in the east after Orion had safely disappeared over the western horizon. Kesimpulannya, Orion akan sentiasa lari dr Scorpius yg duk kejar dier dah brape abad ntah smpi kiamat rasanyer. Haha.



The pelik thing is, kt setiap kala jengking, scorpius ni ader penyengat dier yg diwakili oleh 2 bintang kt ekor dier iaitu lambda and upsilon. Arab zaman dulu2 dah namakan dua2 bintang ni 'The Sting' bersesuaian ngan nama scorpius dier. Haha. kebetulan ke tak? Ader reason gak Allah bg ilham kt org2 greek supaya namakan zodiak tu Scorpius. Hikmahnyer akan sentiasa berterusan smpi bila2

Graduation Summer 2009

Finally, but again, as all may say... THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING



So, from baby steps, I'm moving on to toddler's running and falling. And keep wondering, when will I fly like superman. Wanting to always be good to others. And also the needing of tears and crush. All of this is to become my-better-self

No Boundary

No boundary. A beautiful song sang by the latest American Idol, Kris Allen.

"There is no boundary for universe as there is no 'other' side of the universe that we can look into," Prof Copeland once said in one of his brilliant lecture for Cosmology.

I was reading tafsir Quran for surah titled 'the stars' just to search for any knowledge on the universe and I came across this verse (Al-Najm 53:17)

"Penglihatannya (Muhammad) tidak berpaling dari yg dilihatnya itu dan tidak (pula) melampauinya"

My mind is full with astronomy right now. After finished watching the national geographic video on 'Journey to the End of the Universe,' I felt ashamed of myself for losing my faith in this dream that Allah have gave especially to me. I recovered my passion in astronomy. And I will always pray that I won't loose this passion ever again.

Halal beers

I came across this drink when I was watching akhbar youtube. Someone commented that there is the so-called 'halal beer' made from barley malt... bla3... me n my friends were a little shock. Then both of us went dining in one of halal restaurant in UK and there, again, we came across this so-called 'halal beer'. Non-alcoholic red & white wines, and also beers. Curiosity almost got us. We just an inch away from drinking those drinks. But Allah will and always protect us. That's the power of my believe.

Later at home, my mind wouldn't get off this so-called 'halal beer'. Google, the cheapest, easiest source of information. 672,000 google hits for halal beer. Most of muslim forums are still discussing about this matter. But most of the non-muslim websites are promoting this so-called 'halal beer' (eg: time.com, theasiannews.co.uk, news24.com)

I joined the muslimgirls livejournal group and address this matter for discussion. Some answers really hit me:

"just my opinion, but you would think that since it is haram to drink alcohol, even drinking non-alcoholic drinks that are made to look like alcoholic drinks would be haram too, even if no alcohol is ingested. it's the act in general. why model something after a haram act? why would you want to be seen drinking a non-alcoholic drink, when it would be haram if you were really drinking the alcoholic version. but i really don't know what the answer would be! i hope someone can help you" credit: goldseas

There are some acts towards this so-called 'halal beer'. I admit I have a shallow knowledge about this but I am still and want to learn more about this.