I'm lovin it...

Aku dah blaja dgn byknye sblm masuk kelas Nucleus, tajuk: Mass Spectrometer....

okies, first lukis perjalanan ions sebesar papan putih kt kelas... then, tiap2 section akan ada nota sendiri2 biar semua senang faham....



Okies, masuk kepada soalan drp Matriculation;
perrgghhh... aku gaduh dgn students psal velocity selector.. arah mane daya magnet dia menular... aku stress... budak akan stress bila nmpk aku stress. that's the dangerous of being a teacher. U r the only captain of the ship called class. If u dunno which way to go, they will wonder around with you. Only u can decide to move according to the wind or just sink down to the bottom of the sea..

At this moment, the ship dah bocor... in a few moments, this whole class will sink. I had no idea how to fix it. Some of the students already told me the useful method, but due to my selfishness and my high ego, I dun want to listen to them. I am at wrong. Until now, I am at wrong and I regret for not listening to my students.
And the ship sank.

I'm having the most difficult time of the year... STPM is getting nearer. I should be burning my midnight oil together with them. I need to guide them. I need to calm them. I need to teach them. I need to keep their motivation on without decelerating. I need to hold them when they are feeling down. But I'm the one who is at lost. I have no idea on how to love them. I need to be brave, be strong, be knowlegable, be firm to keep them going.... but InsyaAllah everything will be fine =)

Am I loving you right?

When I prepared myself with every careful word, to have a normal conservation with you... but when we meet, nothing can come out right~

When I was angry with whatever u did to me... I am still speechless everytime I look into ur eyes~

When I want to free myself from u... that is when I cannot stop thinking of u~

When I decide to keep my distance from u... I would still come close to you everytime u're calling my name~

So, am I madly in love with u?

Even though this feeling is frustrating, but I started to like it.
Maybe someday, after a few years, we'll laugh about this frustrating moment... together

Staying

Karya ini pula terhasil ketika daku sdg stress dipaksa utk sambung belajar oleh ibu dan ayah~


This tempting way,
with this tempting heart,
I could feel the cold breeze,
through my cheek, flying off my small muffler,
This mind is set,
but why thus this heart still flutters?

Looking at this lonely road,
Enchanted by the mist of romance,
But my heart keep on pounding,
about the love within this air,
"I want to stay here forever!"
why can't I just shout it out loud?
Maybe I am still a scaredy kid...

(dap dup) VVVvvv______

Before this feeling fades away like any other feelings, I want to blog this to give me the reminder of this feeling....

If there is a knock on the door of my heart, how am I suppose to answer it?
I have a lot experience of love, but I have very less experience of being loved. And I have zero experience of dating. This confusion, in my thought is one of the strong feelings that I want to remember. And my heart would not stop trembling this fast....

I can still feel the chill of the question that I need the answer rite away to take me far from this confusion, but I shouldn't be that selfish. So, how should I answer the knocking on the door of my heart? Should I open it with a smile, should I wait for someone to just crash the door, or should I just ignore the knocking? adesss~~~~

*So korg, sila jgn minta nasihat ttg perkara2 ini sbb sy mmg tak tau ape2~~

Happy 1st Anniversary

Pejam celik, pejam celik.... dah setahun daku memulakan pekerjaan sebagai seorang pembakar lilin demi menerangi orang lain... CIKGU

Masa awal2 jd ckgu, the reality was really super different that what I had imagine. Stupid imagination! Sepatutnye, ditugaskan menjadi seorang guru chemistry.... tp ntah mcm mane, takdir yg tertulis di Luh Mahfuz, mengajar FIZIK STPM sbb xde ckgu langsung ajar.

At first seronok. Fizik pn cinta pertamaku~ *ahaks. tp lama kelamaan, tanpa guidance dan tunjuk ajar, aku nangis tiap2 mlm. tak tahan... the subject was easy, but to teach is one very difficult thing. I always thought, why the hell the students would not just listen to me. Physics is not that difficult....

But as time goes by, I learn that teaching is one of the most amazing thing that could happen to my life. Students are still kids, no matter at what age they are. It is the perfect time for them to experience things, learn the hard way of living and learn the beautiful relationships they can have with each other. Coming to SSI, getting close to the teachers and other staffs, were also one of the best thing that I had ever experience. Getting to know is easy, but as time goes by, the love blossom.

Kenangan:

1st
ajar tingkatan 6 atas... super susah, sbb diorg super pandai... tp batch2 Jia Jun sgt sopan dan mendengar kata. Nway, they are my 1st students =)

2nd:
Jd Jurulatih Olympiad Sek Ren Peringkat Kebangsaan dalam bidang Fizik. Seminggu di Melaka, melatih budak2 genius msia yg br darjah 6. Super genius, super aktif... mengingatkan kisah silam kenapa aku tak ske bdak2 dlu... haha

3rd:
lemparan air panas oleh Kak Rossa. Super pedih giler.... smpi masak kulit kt kepala. haha. dan tanpa disedari menangis teresak2 tanpa diduga... smpi skang parut dia ada lg ni~

4th:
Di tempat yang sama dgn lemparan air panas, kene hentam raket badminton dgn En Zamri... pergh, super berdenyut kepala time tu... lebam dgn parut X jelas giler... masa tu dah pk, SSI mmg tak ske diriku ini~

5th:
Jamuan akhir tahun SSI. 1st time main volleyball dgn semua ckgu2 laki. time dgn nik n the geng dlu tak kesah langsung main... tp skang patutnye rs segan men dgn ckgu laki.... tp keseronokan main tu mengatasi segalanya. haha. But I'm glad I played with them, sbb lepas tu, diri ini semakin rapat dengan ckgu2 lain~

6th:
Pra kemenangan F1 kt UTP. 1st time pegang F1, 1st time gak naik pentas sbb menang. Tgk kanak2 berusaha membanting tulang menyiapkan folio2 F1, mmg mengagumkan. I realize that school is the only placed for kids to have fun with each other =)

7th:
dh kot... byk sgt rasanya dah ni.... hehe.

Dlu ada org pernah kata: "Ann ni tak sesuai jd ckgu sbb dia baik sgt..." And at some moment, I did think that I am so not suitable for this job. I have no idea how to be angry or get mad with anything.... If I want to survive with teaching, I need to learn to be fierce and firm. But, adaptation is based on one's perception. I should not run away. If I am really fated to leave this job, I wanna leave in a macho style. In conclusion, I am really glad I took this job =)




UTP F1 Cup 2011

Rentetan Dari Nisfu Sya’ban

Ini adalah ulasan dari kuliah magrib pada malam ini oleh Al Fadhil Ustaz Hanafiah dari Jabatan Agama Islam Johor.

Sedikit ilmu berkisar kepada Israq & Mikraj dan Malam Nisfu Sya’ban. Selepas dari peristiwa Israq & Mikraj yang berlaku pada 27 Rejab, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w telah menerima perintah untuk mewajibkan umatnya melaksanakan solat lima waktu. Sejak dari malam 27 Rejab itu, baginda telah memaksimakan amalan baginda kepada Allah s.w.t dengan mengerjakan ibadah solat sunat dan berdoa sehingga lewat pagi untuk memohon kepada Allah mengampunkan dosa umatnya iaitu umat akhir zaman yang diketahuinya terdapat banyak permasalahan dunia.

Sehinggalah pada pada malam 14 Sya’ban, Allah s.w.t telah memerintahkan Jibrail turun ke dunia dan berjumpa dengan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w untuk menyampaikan perintah Allah s.w.t untuk memberi baginda 2/3 kuasa iaitu memberi syafaat kepada umat baginda. Seterusnya pada malam 15 Sya’ban malaikat Jibrail sekali lagi turut ke dunia bertemu Nabi Muhammad s.a.w untuk menyampaikan perintah Allah s.w.t iaitu diberikan 1/3 lagi kuasa untuk memberi syafaat kepada umat baginda di hari perhitungan di Padang Mashyar nanti.

Jadi pada malam 14 Sya’ban juga dikenali dengan Nisfu Sya’ban dimana Allah s.w.t telah memberi kuasa penuh kepada Nabi Muhammad boleh memberi syafaat kepada umat akhir zaman. Oleh itu seeloknya kita dapat meningkatkan amalan kita kepada Allah s.w.t pada tiga hari tersebut iaitu 14,15 & 16 Sya’ban dengan berpuasa sunat. Berselawatlah kita kepada nabi kita Nabi Muhammad, mudah-mudahan kita beroleh syafaat di hari perhitungan kelak.

Fallen

1st:
Someone from Kolej Mara Banting. I used to study in an all-girl-school before I came to KMB. I had a little knowledge of love. I really enjoyed 'usha-ing' people from afar. Watching their every move. Watching their kindness and naughty side. I gain a lot of knowledge about people's interaction. I was really addicted to stalking people. I also learn that by watching, u'll learn to love. So as time goes by, I'd fallen too deep for him. He is one of a kind. He's generousity and warmness had melted my heart. This... lasted for 5 years.

2nd:
I came close to him due to study and work. From my 2nd year, we had a lot in common. He was smart, intelligent and kind as well. He was also.... one of a kind. We really had the chemistry. Before I realized it, I was falling for my best friend and it was unlucky. We can chat casually about our lives and things that interest both of us. But, we cannot even utter a word to have a talk about anything emotional. Because of that, the journey that did not even have a start, had ended. And I know the reason was... we weren't meant to be together. org kata "dah takde jodoh"

3rd:
*secret* =p

Well, let the mysterious be more complicated, or else life would be too boring to live in =))

Hong Kong for the weekends...

Mengikut kegilaan kerja linda... kami telah menjejakkan kaki ke Hong Kong demi menonton konsert YUI-san! keje sungguh gila, tp sgt best. Nway, we need distractions for a few moments in our lives, to really appreciate what's precious in front of us.

Can I just tell you something?

I always thought, “This is why I’m single: I’m too much for anyone to love. I have this issue and this issue, oh, and 3 years from now I’ll figure out I also have this issue, too.” And it becomes your identifier. You’re the single person who thinks there’s no one out there to love. Or be loved by. But then for a time, you stop thinking it’s you. So you date and you realize every guy you meet is just worse than the one before. And you get wrapped up in this world of “this is why I’m single.” It’s me. But it’s also them. And this is why I’m single.

And then one night you meet someone. And they’re fantastic. And over time, they come to learn all of your issues. And you learn theirs. But for some reason, they don’t matter. Your trust issue disappears because you trust them. Your intimacy issue disappears because you love being intimate with them. Your other issues slowly disappear because your issues are no longer an issue.

And you realize, “This is why I was single. I was waiting to meet them.”

Really. It happens. So hang in there.

Spreading Kindness

"The best preparation for tomorrow is doing your best today."

~ H. Jackson Brown, Jr.